Thursday, January 01, 2015


Earlier today I was sleep all day enjoying the weather.
It is soooo damn good to be back to your bed and having a lovely windy weather.
Until I went to the refrigerator and open up a carton of sealed milk.
I began to remember my childhood

I used to love the brand new purchased milk and the sensation of open up the carton cap.
And life is so much easier back then
I just need a milk, bunch of cereals, a bar of chocolate, and any other significant snack for my tummy to be happy in the moment.
But now, how could I forgot such a feeling.

I really really over think about everything.
And it kills me.
How could you spend the first day of 365 days in 2015 with thinking about what life will brings to you?
I want to travel. A lot.
I need to recreate my dreams and start over everything and reach all of the goals.
I demand to make a change in my life and any other people life in this universe.

'Why so sad about tomorrow? Lets seize the day'
Thats what I said to my self regarding the feelings I encountered.
But hell yeah, lets set a plan.

I went through the history of my blog and realized that in the new year of 2014 I didn't even bother to think about my self and what did I wanted that year. Maybe thats given some of influences to the year itself, that everything didn't went really close to what I've been expected.

So baby, I decided,
This 2015 will gonna be awesome and ruled!
And according to the word rule, is referring to the throne of the Queen.

Definition of the Queen:

a woman or thing regarded as excellent or outstanding of its kind.

synonyms:doyennestarsuperstarleading lightbig namequeen beeprima donnaidolheroinefavoritedarlinggoddess

a woman or girl chosen to hold the most important position in a festival or event.

I have my own definition too, a Queen is a woman, who could rule and make an influence on her surroundings. 
So yay!!  I would love to fight for more and feel the depth of my life like right now!

She could make a change, decide something, and act gracefully to the world around her.

Since I was a kid, I already loves the image of Princess and Queen. And watching all of the characters in the TV Shows/Movies made me love the idea even more.
Just like Blair Waldorf, and the acted of the popular high school girl Quinn Fabray.

So, I can't even wait to be more motivated! 

- D

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Reality Bites

From what I've known in my past,
I never be so 'hollow' to write about anything.

But all over the dull, repetitive past months, they are killing my imagination & creativity.
I was like, 'I want to write, but I have nothing to write about, but at the same time there are so many wide wild thoughts in my mind I want to pour about'.
And this is going too far. I lose it. I actually lost it.

I never thought that some experiences, many new things, different activity could bringing such a huge alteration in someone's life.
It is never even came up in my mind that I could have a moment of 'tongue-tied', not even in my own peace of secretive mind.
I began to just repeat the same activity, just to make my life looks like that is actually livin'.
I'm having a hard time finding a word in English, even I lost on my own natural language.

I guess something has changed.
Or maybe not 'some', but many things changed.
And its changed in an extreme mega bite changes.
And I should really embark my 'actually-old-self-to-my-supposed-to-be-newly-acquaintance-self' in 2015.

I just hope that I didn't lose any of my soul, my dream, and my passion that have been travel with me all over the time.
As the age's leveling up, I noticed that people has lost their eternal real identity.
And I'm not going to be the one who stand still and watch it happen.
That is something that'll make you lose everything you've earned and dreamed about, you know.

So maybe for me, I'll buckle up and be ready for the new plan!

.. and I hope you too! xx
P.S: I actually in my age 23 on 2015 :3

- D

Sunday, April 06, 2014

Efflorescence Lady

Hello, Universe!
Its been waaaay waaay too long since my last post. And now I'm here, as an efflorescence lady who tell a Midnight fairy tale story about my kind of oh-so-hopeless romantic Anniversary Dinner to the green freshly-cut grass, hopping bunny, windy weather, and sparkling constellations. (Set yourself ready or close the tab, because this caused you feel "Oohh" and "Awww" or there, you feel a little cheesy :p)

Hey Deyi, this post I dedicated to you :)

One year ago, on April 6th 2013, this man officially dated me. 
I believe April 6th is amazing day in my life, like theres a lightning bolt in the outer spaces or a brand new beautiful constellation just being founded. I never stop feeling the rush of my Dopamine in this date, or else he just never let himself stop made me feel this way :)

Oh I almost forgot, so haaaaaaaave you met Derry? >.<

Oh heey, turns out, there's my Prince Charming waiting for me 

From April 6th I'm being convinced that this man is waaay to awesome! I can't just describe the way he made me feel, But all along, I feel like he just always try to bring out the best of me without changing the way I am. I have an analogy about my relationship, this is my take notes from the famous love story by Nicolas Sparks, The Notebook:

She would tell him what she wanted in her life--her hopes and dreams for the future--and he would listen intently and then promise to make it all come true. And the way he said it made her believe him, and she knew how much he meant to her.” 
― Nicholas SparksThe Notebook

One years is not a short time, you know. But its not a long time too for us. We didn't feel like we've enough with our time together or feeling tiresome. Sometimes I just feel like when we through every day, we became so close and even one, or in mean time, reflected each other. But I just didn't want to forget how incredible the feeling that we've started before. I still want we embraced the little thing called love and appreciate every moment together. 

Well that was an intermezzo. My point is that this day perfectly became a day. He brought me to the place where he was setting this place a fairy tale likely and I very much much love it! I love it! The roses, the view, the candle light, the dining was amazing infinity and beyond. 

How came a girl not loving this?

"...So he waited, listening for a moment longer to the tuning fork that had been struck upon a star. Then he kissed her. At his lips’ touch she blossomed like a flower and the incarnation was complete.” 
― F. Scott FitzgeraldThe Great Gatsby

This place ambience was incredibly perfect. My mood always lighten up and a light talk sprinkle our night dine. There are a chandelier in the room I supposed, but I'm too busy blushingly my cheek to take some photos of the room. Even they served us very well. 
And those red roses, I can't even tell. I love flowers too much, I love roses. And candle light just made it even perfect.
Tell him what, this is an amazing present a Lady could ever ask for. I mean, some people might being denial, calling this a cliche, cheesy, well haters gonna hate. But if I were them, I will seek this kind of love on my own, everybody deserve a love happiness. Because from what I learn, every single person born to have an unconditionally love to somebody, to their best half. 

We suited formally, but still, we surround by our goofy jokes.

And for the best records, we had our own Anniversary presents from this place, an Anniversary cake. I can't even… >.<

I'm so blessed and I'm being grateful to have you, mine!
Thank you so much for the very wonderful Anniversary Dinner, couldn't ask for more, you're the best! Once again, Happy Anniversary my only one love, I love you to the Tattooine, to the Asgard and back! Looking forward our infinity and beyond 

Picture of 12 AM on April 6th 2014. Our simple kind of Anniversary celebration.

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

2014: New Start

Happy New Year!